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| Getting a new blog. |
| 10.28.04 (1:45 pm) [edit] |
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I'm getting a new blog
i can't take these chances anymore.
If you want the address to my new blog, you need to be a friend of mine, under the age of 27, and frequently (when you can) visit my blog anyway. If you want it, and you qualify, email me @ punkassbitch9696@yahoo.com and i will reply with the link. If you do not qualify, dont even try. I wont reply.
Thankyou.
oh and if you dont qualify, SUCKS TO BE YOU!! EAT DIRT.
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| quizzes by the duzizzez |
| 10.26.04 (9:43 pm) [edit] |
OMFG :o
I SURE HOPE NOT!!! lmao
these are fun!
ok done for now...
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| ...as we know it |
| 10.26.04 (8:53 pm) [edit] |
um... yeeah...
I'm gettin real good at feeling sorry for myself. The other day was homecoming, and nobody asked me. So ofcourse, i didnt go. I sat at home moping around and keeping my mouth shut. Every once in a while a tear would roll down my cheek and there was nothing i could do but wipe it off... (which i was so lazy that i didn't.) I sat at my computer and talked to people... this one guy kept telling me he loves me. he's from fuckin texas and i had just met him in a chat like the night before... w/e. some people just have no lives... like me.
on like mon, tuesday or wednesday, not sure, i did something i shouldnt have, and i didn't feel stupid about doing it. In fact, i STILL dont feel stupid about doing it. The scar, no matter what they try to tell me, will not be there forever. it barely even hurt but it was so satisfactory... and i promised... i SWORE i wouldnt scare myself again, and promises mean EVERYTHING to me. swearing doesnt but it means lots to other people so i put that in there... see when u swear something, you are usually are talking about god, and i couldn't give a fuck about god if i tried so swearing doesnt mean anything to me... but a promise... i fuckin broke a promise... and still dont feel stupid. I just feel bad for stirring up my friends.
reasons i did it. evvverybody asks that so i might as well put it, it saves a lot of explaining.
~one of my friends... she started going out with someone and totally ignoring her friends... and i knew it wasnt on purpose but i didn't know how to tell her... and that was causing stress... i knew i had to tell her
~a guy friend of me has started smoking pot and came to school stoned the other day... he bought 20$ worth (which is a LOT in washington compared 2 wut he got in cali, where he also bought 20 dollars worth) ...and it just kind of made me sad and mad and happy and confused all at the same time... because he thinks its cool and it scares me that i do but so do i, but he is hurting himself and all that shit and i worry... and he wants me to do it with him at some point... and i havent said yes but i havent said no either...
~ parents... lonnnng story
~homecoming.. now this is the part that makes me sick. i dont know WHY i'm so mixed up about this but i hinted to like three guys that i didnt have a date to homecoming. none of them did either. none of them asked me. none of them even went stag.
can you believe i've only been to a dance with a guy once?
can you believe i've never ACTUALLY had a boyfriend??? you know how fuckin depressed that makes me? like wtf did i do? why doesnt ne1 ask me out???? all my friends have had like at least 5 and i've had a total of ZiP. yeah, look i'm feeling sorry for myself again, right???? aaaaargh.
yeah those were the basic reasons, plus other things going through my mind randomly that i was upset about you know? and i wanted to do much worse than what i did but i stopped myself because i HAD promised that... and didnt realise till there was about a half inch on my wrist.
ooookay so yeah i've been kind of depressed, but things are slowwwwly going back to normal. (which is still depressing, but not too bad)
oh and after i did it
all my friends suddenly cared for like three days. like 'oh i'm here for you' but when i call, they're on the other line or, they're gettin a nother call, or they're just about to eat, or they're not allowed on the phone... allways something. how is that there?? At least i know what being there means. I've been called several times by crying friends and ditched my homework, skipped dinner, turned off the fucking tv. whatever you kno? stupid. i dont really cry with my voice, i'm pretty good at hiding it... so right away, they dont care.
but if i hurt myself they care. don't u think they're givin me the wrong idea??? whatever. it doesnt change my mind about anything except the importance of a good friend, which i knew from the beginning.
oh and me and mat - not a thing. never were... he wants to stay friends... i dont blame him i see how weird things get after you go out with somebody.
but whenever i get depressed i think of how much worse it could be. how much worse my friends have had it before, and i get mad at myself for complaining, and keep it all inside.
well i'm glad i did that while in a good mood, otherwise my keyboard would be flooded. i must stop typing... getting annoying. night.
~~StacerZ~~
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| 09.04.04 (7:53 pm) [edit] |
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Wohhhhh it's been so goddamn long since i've been on here... i have fuckin negative tbux man! jeeze! how does one get negative tbux??? lmao... guess i'll haf2 earn em back... i wuz givin em out b4 i had so many! wow this is weird... ooh well wont take long. Yea about my life... been pretty sucky... except 4 mat. I think we are a thing now lol but i am not positive. We've been hanging out and stuff it's pretty kule! My computer is so slow i am typing like thirty seconds ahead of it lmao wowwwwww. kk well that explains any typos. Lol. SoOoOo i gotsta fix my song i think i dont know havent checked in a while... oh and now, i haf2 fix my friend sasha's account lol (shh dont tell... i didnt do it 4 her ;) lol) she wants a song i can handle that... hehe. *wonders who's phone number.... hm....* AAAANyWHOooo ya i think i'm gunna make a new blog... about my changes... yes i have changed quite a bit... become sort of punk. Wish i could be more... but ya kno it doesn't all grow ofkf trees. *sigh* Okay well i'mma write more later... gotta check out all the new features... talk at chyaz allz lataz!
~StacerZ~
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| been a long time |
| 07.21.04 (12:43 pm) [edit] |
Sorry it's been so long, i've been building a message board. It's called Experience The Power. Anyone can join it's mostly for teens but you kno how things work lol n/e one can join. ((Especially if ur a teen))
anywhoo I'm not gettin a lot of song suggestions here, help me out wuddu u wanna hear :D 8)
I miss Matvey... He's in DC i think cuz (oops) called him around 10 pm last night and his dad answered and wuz all tired and stuff and he's all "call in the morning around nine" duuuuuuuuude i dono if he meant nine tHERe or nine hErE so I'm going to call him tomorrow mornig at nine am hErE hopfully that will work :) i wanna hear his voice again!!
I went shopping yesterday got three new pairs of jeans for 107$ wowwww shopping is expencive... especially when ur hot from tryin them on and u need to go buy an icee lol. :roll: I still love it anyway :P okayzzz
well I'll update more later please join my website www.experiencethepower.tk
luvz,
StacerZ
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| wohh... |
| 07.02.04 (11:12 pm) [edit] |
I SWEAR TO GOD I DIDNT CHEAT!! I DIDNT EVEN TAKE IT TWICE AND I ANSWERED HONESTLY AND EVERYTHING!!!!
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being around your boyfriend.
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hope that works!!!
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| remember how i said |
| 07.01.04 (6:24 pm) [edit] |
scroll down how i said
or somethin 2 that effect?
well i believe mat has changed me. I will be totally different next year and this time my parents wont stop me. I'll go to whatever lengths to get kule clothes instead of wearing old t-shirts and three years ago stiles echk... not that i will be prep or anything. I'm goin 4 wuts aLwAys in stile - punk stuff. I hate that word "punk" but i love everything about it... IF that makes any sence, shuv it in ur pipe and smoke it cuz it needs milked. lol... if THAT made n/e sence... lol. so i was thinkin, since i'm now into the whole modern rock, punk, and metal thing, why not dress like i am...? express myself.. i need 2 do it, so i'm going to
Incubus rocks, i will put them up in my song thingie that isnt workin right now 4 sum reason. i gotsta fix my gliches on my blog
anywhoo about my next year potential- new ScHoOL year revolution if you will... what kind of hair do i need? i'm thinkin wut i have is fine which is wavy shoulder length- not too wavy in fact its only wavy if it dries naturally - wull its longer than shoulder... elbow lengh i should say. brownish redish.. its like light brown kinda u kno? wit natural highlights i've never died it. if i put one of those caps on and pulled only sertain parts of hair through and sat in the sun all day or worked in the sun or wutever i would have perfect highlights but who cares that much? so im thinkin its fine but i dono if i need it stiled or not u kno?
then i need a barbed wire necklace and some sweeeeet pants cuz i knOw they're out there... i just haf2 go 2 a Bigger mall than silverdale peh. lol. so yea
well wut do yall think? u think i should? i think i could pull it off. It would scare away the annoying people i usually atract *caugh* AMY MEIER *caugh* excuse me. n/e whoo yea. if not scare at least intimidate.
well i gotta go 4 now. sianara!
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| here 4 u |
| 06.29.04 (8:44 pm) [edit] |
I'm here 4 u
I allways have and allways will be
I care for you
and worry when ur not with me
I cry for you
And hope that you cant hear me
I'd die for you
And though that thought is kinda scary
we will allways be
forever mind for ever yours..
and we will allways be
best friends.
when life gets fuked up...
& evy time u turn around theres another problem
dont worry
I'll b there 2 solve 'em
When sum1 brings u down
so low
that u kno
they're in trouble with me
you're right...
i'll beat 'em up..... to cheer u up
hell yea cat fight
And though that thought's kinda scary
we will allwyas be
forever mine forever yours
and we will allways be
best friends.
All u can do is toss and turn
You think about
that special sum1
My door is allwayz open
so give me a shout
movie night is 2night
damn right
When ur greiven of a loss
and so am I
well fuk wuts a loss
when we've got u and I?!?!?!
So we will allways be
forever mine forever yours
and we will allways be
best friends.
............
always have and alwayz will be
...........
worry when ur not wit me
...........
though thats kinda scary
we will alwayz be
best friends.
and we will allwayz be
forever mind forever yours
so we will allwayz be
best friendz.
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| Matvey |
| 06.25.04 (10:09 pm) [edit] |
omfg i got mat this kule-ie-o $70 bling bligh typa chain lol i hope he likes it its for his bday i got it for him ON his bday but i haf2 mail it 2 him so I haf2 write a letter to go with it so yea here it goes... ttyl
!~Stacerz~!
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| YES YES YES YES |
| 06.23.04 (9:57 pm) [edit] |
HE'S COMING BACK!!!!
anywhooz yea
i
am
on
the
phone
with
eryn
wooohoo
we are discussing what i do.
i want to yank lol
okay i yank
yes!
jessie: nibbler
tori: frencher
emily: biter
mellissa: toungs
eryn: blows
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| Thats better |
| 06.22.04 (2:45 pm) [edit] |
Things between me and sasha are hunky dorky now just to let u all know... but i miss my guy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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| Public Apology. |
| 06.15.04 (4:59 pm) [edit] |
This shoutout goes to my friend Sasha. :cry: i want to say i'm sorry....
Okay, here's my side of the story.
I met a person on here, Yooter, and i asked them to neomail me. They did, it said "hey you told me to neomail you" and either i totally forgot i had said that, or, you (sasha) said it without me knowing, sent an email back sayin "i did?" or something to that affect. Just recently i had told sasha my password when i got back on and had recieved a new neomail from yooter. "yes, on tblog, u met me, remember?" and i was like wtf? lol (nervous laaugh) and well, i, instantly remembering, but not remembering saying such, sent a neomail back.
this neomail said something to the effect of 'sorry about that, that was my friend sasha that sent you that neomail, be carefull, she hacks' leaving NO user name for sasha, or annnnything like that, and she (yooter) was the only person i told.
Well, when my friend sasha DID open my account, she SAW this neomail that i had sent, and the one that yooter sent back (which btw, i never got to see) and she got pissed.
nothin i could say could change how upset she was, and i couldnt blame her. I was supprised she didnt steal all my neopoints or anything, all she did was make my pets bETTer.
Later that evening, i went to get on my account, and it wouldnt let me. I tried about three times and went ''crap. she fukin went and changed my password." i seriously thought thatt. Thought she had decieved me, makin me THINK she made my pets all better, and all that... was mad about it, frustrated, trying endless times to get into my airstay neopets account.
time upon time, 'that username and password dont match', and a maaaaad Cutiepiesssss showed up (my shoyru) glaring at me like i was TRYING to hack into my OWN account.
frustrated i got madder at sasha, thinking that was the ONLY explination..... messaging her all day long the next day whener possible about how we need 2 talk and i was mad at her and all that.
she had no idea what she had done wrong
i said "go try to get in to my account" i had sent myself (from a new account) a rather mean neomail...
now she's pissed at me saying she never did such a thing...
she even changed it for me... ...back from nothing in the first place... but my computer, my mothers computer, the work computer, the school computer, and the comps in the science room alllllll refused to let me into my account. It couldnt possibly have still been the same thing!
i did not have the wrong password, it just wouldnt let me in.......... and i dont know why.
I guess i will never know for sure what went on, but i think i believe sasha, and she has every right to be pissed at me for accusing her in the first place, right? EVERY right i totally understand.... and i'm extremely sorry... and i dont think she believes me.
There's my story... Take it or leave it, its true... word for word and every word. :( I hope she'll accept my apology.
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| HEY ALL! |
| 06.04.04 (3:47 pm) [edit] |
hahaaaaaaaaaaaa
music mah man music, thaz my blog, i'll slip an entry here and there, but mostly i'll be changin my songs, puttin in the lyrics. Music is such a big part of my life and here comes the summer WOW more time (sorta) lol so i will be chanin the song once or twice a week, and if u catch me while i'm online, i change it a few times while i'm on.
First of all, i'd like to start off with a list of suggestions.
TELL ME YOUR FAVORITE SONG.
i'll get the lyrics and song up asap after you comment!!
THIS IS GUNNA GET BIG!
it's like a radio station on a website lol sorta. ur fav song could be on for a week!
if i cant find your song, i'll send you ten tbux, but if i can tell ur just sayin the song so that i cant find it, u aint gettin squat. sry! my judgement only!
okie pokie yall so comment and tell me what ur fav songs are!!! hey u might get yours TODAY!!!
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| um |
| 05.28.04 (12:04 pm) [edit] |
i am 'working on my project' but not lol this is quite interesting cuz i am bored
yeah lol so i dont know wut else to say except that i want to do something really bad but i am going to write that later. luvz 2 u all
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| brownies |
| 05.26.04 (6:48 pm) [edit] |
well i um hehe used my mommy's other brownie mix and i'm a hopin she duznt notice cuz she's a makin brownies 2night :D:D:D
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| 05.25.04 (11:23 am) [edit] |
i must say that this blog is coming along nicely, though i would like some more comments than i have been getting, and hellos in my chatterbox?!?! where are they??? why thankyou :) oh and alsooooo i'd like u all to know that i give out random tbux to people that comment.
those of u that put newbie wont get any tho :( sry put ur name or if u arent a tblog user put ur email or ur real name or something and tell me if u ever get an account. I"ll be waiting.. if u tell me u just got an account u are almost gaurenteed tbux if u can prove it. :) okay i will watch 4 u pplz
random commenters, heres wut to commetnt on:
[b](a q from a few days ago that nobody answered: )[/b]
[i]If you could commit one crime without getting caught in ur life, no penalties no moral guilt... wut would it be??[/i]
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| well |
| 05.24.04 (11:21 am) [edit] |
lets see what can i say um i'm not reallllly mad at eryn anymore, i wish i could express anger better but you know wutever i dont think she ever even knew i was mad at her. *sigh* oh well. i'm going to just do something...... weird that i'd never ever do normally... take a risk you know? like 99.999% of people that are asked what they would do if they re-lived their lives they said they would take more risks. I am a very shy and careful person and i wish that i wasnt but i am lol grr
lol!! meesa have fun :P
anywhoo saturday we went to the humain society (me and eryn) for com service for garrison. It was fun. we ended up doing more than just playing with the animals though, we also cleaned and stuff yeaaaah it was grrreat. wait -no people use 'great' too much. it was um... grandtastick thats good i like that.
Grandtastick and Neetoriphick are my words lol and neetoriphick is a REEEAL compliment :) so if i say u have somethin or that u r sumthin neetoriphick u kno wut i 'm talking about.
well got to go. tty all laterz
~StacerZ~
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| new poem, no title |
| 05.21.04 (3:28 pm) [edit] |
[i]This isn't fair
This isnt right
I'll leave this world
Without a fight.
Goodbye to whomever
I may have done wrong
Goodbye to all those
Meaningful songs
I'll see you later, if its real
that big place in the sky
i'm realy truly sorry
That i wish to die.
Goodbye to nice people
As i leave this cruel life
Goodbye to enemies
As i pick up my knife
The blade penetrates slowly and long
At a sland into my skin
I suffer for the longest time
as my memories run thin
And all i start to see is red
As the blade goes deeper in.
My last thoughts
are of my best friend
We were promised
Till the end.
I guess that this is over now
I wish that it could last somehow...
Suddenly I feel selfish.
I take it all back
I wish I wish....
...too late.[/i]
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[b]nO I AM NOT THINKING ABOUT SUICIDE. THIS POEM IS ABOUT A PICTURE I DREW OF A GIRL WITH A KNIFE KNEELING ON THE FLOOR. as soon as i get a scanner and figure it all out i'll put that on here...
...sorry so sad! i hate myself for writing such sad things!! lol thanx 4 readin tell me wut u think![/b]
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| Well |
| 05.18.04 (10:00 pm) [edit] |
couldn't possibly ignore eryn today but i tried to be as sulky as possible. grrr why do i have to be so soft??? i wanted to be totally pissed and ignorant peh so much for that *shrugs* gave it a shot anyway...
Mat is sick. he was sick all weekend and i could tell he was still sick at school today... :( i hope he feels better soon ......dog gammit i want to ask him out so bad! grrrr shut the fuk up emily NO i said NO lol NiKKI no no NO NO NO NO NO! god i dont like people askin for me...
....i kno i kno so ask already...... grrrrrrr why cant i do this i have self confidence issues or somethin... and its not like he's the most popular guy in school or anything... but look at it like "if everyone hates u, u get to be the enemy" and then its rEaLLy fun! spose it would get old though...
i'm starting to want to do bad things i've never wanted to do... so if anyone tries to get me to do something, i'm afraid i'd be very liable to say yes these days... who can go without trying? Mom said "take at least one bite of everything on ur plate even if u dont think u'll like it" but is that advice on life as well? u know wut i mean, right?
oh and emily that thing i told u at the farm about me not sayin fuk cuz i promised my self? load of bull shit to piss u off, or at least push ur buttons... sry mat's rubbin off on me ;)
but i still wont say it if u ask me to... thats fukin stupid... if i said "say balogna with cottage cheese on an irish cow eating mustard in a feild of tomatoes" would you say it? maybe you would but i wouldnt if i wuz asked 2 lol... weird? maybe.
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[i][u][b]Question of the day:[/b][/u][/i]
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[i]If you could commit one crime without getting caught, what would it be??? (to who and why... yadda yadda plz)[/i]
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| eryn |
| 05.17.04 (11:10 am) [edit] |
you hurt my feelings again. if u didnt want me to go then u didnt have 2 invite me. if u would have called i could have been ready. but you didnt. you never called me back. i went to the movies with my mom.
Man on fire is A REEEEEEEALLY good movie by the way, it made me choke bak tears... but parts were hillarious and parts were edge of ur seat... reeeally good.
but eryn why didnt u call me back? u sounded like u wanted me to go, didnt you? maye u just don't like 2 do stuff with me in ur crowd.... though u did invite me swimming and i showed up at mcdonalds but that was mostly forks crew...
...btw my mom thinks derrik is cute lol!! :P tell him that. (if u read this)
that was kind of akward seeing u come out of troy and saying hi... i wanted to say hi but i didnt know what else to say....... i coulda caused a scene and been like "BITCH WTF ARE U DOING TO ME?" but why would i do that. oh yeah i remember. :cry: but u dont care really do u...? maybe that wasnt fair but you arent fair eryn. u just arent.
think about ur actions.
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| pooh. |
| 05.16.04 (6:01 pm) [edit] |
crappy day... just... grr eryn... and troy... lol...
she didnt call me back to go see troy with her
i dont really want to see troy anyway,
mother says she'll take me 2 movies.
troy is all she wants to see.
WTF??? is brad pit and orlando bloom SO IMPORTANT?? lol
personally i'd raaaaather see Van Helsing... but whatever works.
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| speck of a moment (poem) |
| 05.14.04 (6:47 pm) [edit] |
here i lay
on my bedroom floor
beaten and brocken
staring at the door
down my heart
shatters, more and more...
.....and for a speck of a moment i dont exist.
but he loves me....
my heart rises up
as he comes in the door
just to bounce back down and
shatter as i tremble on the floor
a sudden crack in my ribcage
a yank through my hair
a twist of throbbing pain through my arm
here i lay on the floor
mistreated
defeted
and for a speck of a moment i dont exist
sting
throbb
gushing
flash
blade penetrates my back
hearing
sirens save me
help me
screaming on the floor
down my heart shatters some more
and again up and down its in
tiny peices now...
crack of a shot.
rumble of a thud.
he's gone
i loved him
tears......
here i lay on the floor...
broken and brused
yet crying for more....
saturated in my own blood
i heard him
hit that floor with a thud...
here i lay on the floor
heart shattered....
....and for a speck of a moment..... ....i dont exist.
[u][i][b]THIS DOESNT HAPPEN TO ME FOR THOSE OF YOU THAT WORRY WHEN YOU READ THIS IT IS TOTALLY MADE UP.[/b][/u] thanks for reading. [/i]
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| interesting... lol |
| 05.14.04 (1:34 pm) [edit] |
hey people actually like my blog lol.... okay done bragging :P
yesterday, thursday, Mat won (dont ask lol he just won.) but he wasnt there. he wins on thursdays and he wasn't there. i was talkin to eryn and all of a sudden i wuz like "i miss mat." and omg i was laughing at myself, and then i wuz like "i want his digets damnit but he doesnt give them out -- he doesnt even know them" cuz its true... at least it was a few weeks ago, he might know them by now... but who givz a fuk lol i want them RIGHT FRIKIN NOW lol i just wanna gab his ear off lol can u tell something StILL? lol
so tomorrow i'm 'going to be sick' and miss the rhody and that other parade. why tf would i want to march? i've marched in sooooooo many parades already!!!
my mom and i argued like a long time and then she's like "well im going to leave it totaly up to you" and i was like " i wish you wouldn't be that way about it" and she's like "what way" and i'm like "be all mad" and she's like "I'm NOT MAD my god stacy.." my mom is definately wanting me to do it, but she left it up to me so i'm going to spite her :) good? good.
later she was like "another thing if ur going to skip tomorrow make sure you aren't feeling guilty about it" omfg. the only thing i would feel guilt about is HER being mad and screw that u know?
mmkay annnnd i want to see mat now.
no now?
mmmkay okay ok im done
will put poem i wrote earlier sooon. llattterrzzz
~Stacerz~
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i forgot to say that i am not mad at eryn ne more lol
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| 05.10.04 (8:51 pm) [edit] |
god. why did i start this with god. i dont believe in god. sorry. anywayz, howbouts i restart it.
damn. noooo that's too frustrating, and i am more sad/scared.....
crap. (that works i guess)... okay my grandma is in the hospital. she was in the p.a. one, but they transferred her to seattle, providence hospital u kno? prob not lol but anywhoo... she had a heart attack or something and she's anemic, they had to add four units of blood in to her body. they dont know where the fuk her blood is going...! maybe some internal bleeding or something bad like that...
....posibly to the point where she'd need heart surgery, and she is NOT for that at all. nooooo open heart surgery. so my grandma might die soon. i'm so scared and sad... i try to hide it at school and it sort of works.... nikki could tell something was wrong but i told her it was just cramps and pms u kno... cuz i have that too.
worries..... i dont really have anyone to turn to, i mean i dont know anyone really that has experienced an ambulence coming to their house every six months or so to take grandma to the hospital after a stroke or a heart attack or something and getting more and more blood, and she has little iron and blah bleh blah and it just chockes me up, u know? *sigh... * well yeah.
its hard to change the subject but i'mmunna try... mat is bein brought down more but he's still cute and i still like him, i mean why wouldn't i? why wouldnt anyone? gee whiz lol
tomorrow i am going to eryn's house and we are gunna watch Gothika. I've already seen it its reeeeally good and i would reccomend it a lot :D lol but ya we're gunna watch that and yea.... fuuuunn :D :D:P:D:D:P okay im dun lol:P
poked kevin geeter er however u spell his name in the head like three times today... he didnt get me once :P YAY (Long story, but good accomplishment.)
ooohhhhkie pokie immunna go look for some jokes to make me happy :D will post good onez so keep chekin!
thanx!
[b][b]question of the day: [/b] [/b] What would you do if you could be the opposite sex for only two weeks, and how would/would you tell anyone?
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